Facebook Publication Date: 12/20/2018 11:12

So now I can give a fuller story on what’s going on with my creaky old body.

Apologies in advance for voice to text I only have my phone.

It’s MRSA which is a rather virulent infection which they have been treating with a variety of serious which is a rather violent infection which they have been treating with a variety of serious antibiotics for the last 48 hours.

They do not think that surgery is warranted right now, they’ll see about it tomorrow but they seems to be doing its job these antibiotics, and so that’s a blessing.

I am very grateful that everyone is taking the time to send me good wishes and thoughts, and on the one hand I’m sorry that I burdened you all, but on the other I am grateful that I did what I needed which is to call all the people who love me together on a mountain and I know that I have you surrounding me it’s a really big deal.

With some exceptions I don’t have that from my biological family so to have that from both my 3D and my virtual family means so much to me.

I have not been alone even though I’ve been by myself quite a bit. Someone once told me that you’re by yourself but you’re not alone and that was something of a empty platitude then but I really am feeling what it means now and I am so very grateful.

shout out to Valerie and her beloved and to Julie and Mandy who made sure I had things that I needed and just let me see their face for a little bit that’s a big deal.

I have been trying hard not to work on lace on race or on any of my other projects because the whole point of being incarcerated in what has to be one of the nicest prison cells in Southern California is that I am not thinking about stressors–

but lace on race is not a stressor lace on race is a privilege and I am doubling down on making sure that I stay healthy so that we can keep lace on Race going full steam.

And now for full disclosure: that means I need to get serious about my diabetes that means I need to get serious about caring as much about my internal workings as I do about cheekbones and eyeliner.

This is about congruence and it’s about external Praxis there is no way that I can be an effective and authentic person and affect durable and deep change if I’m dead.

And now that the crisis is over apparently I can tell the truth: I actually came pretty close.

So for those of you who care about me I am so very grateful, and the best way I can thank you for your well wishes is to do a better job of taking care of myself and by being the woman I exhort others to be, and in a real way, I have dropped the ball. I am determined to keep my promises to all of you. Promises of leadership, reliable and consistent friendship, and writing and praxis that matter and are worth emulating.

I am very very blessed to have you all in my life and I hope you all know it. I’ll do better by you.

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